I have been thinking a lot about my future during the last two months. Personally, I think this is good because it shows how important my future is for me, but at the same time I can get very anxious about it. This is exactly what is happening to me right now. I am starting to question all the decisions that I have made until now. I am all messed up basically, which is why I wanted to write this post. Hopefully, by writing down all my thoughts, everything will be clearer for me.
I feel like it all started when I turned 20. I know this may sound ridiculous to some of you because I am still very young, but I feel like I have done barely nothing with my life. I know I am studying a degree, and that I have done a few things, however, I know I still have a lot to do. Probably I am too ambitious, although I don’t think that’s bad. My purpose in life is to be happy and be remembered. This does not necessary mean being famous, of course not. What it really means is that I want to do something important for the world or cause an impact. Maybe I’m just a daydreamer, who knows.
The thing is that I have always thought I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I always knew I wanted to study English philology and then become an English teacher. We could even say that I am on my way to success, as I am studying what I always wanted and I’m doing quite well. I actually love what I study, even though I am always moaning about it because I am very lazy. Despite all of this, I am not sure any more about the next step: becoming a teacher.
I started working at a language school in January. I’ve had so many different students and tasks to do since then. To be honest, I have so much fun and I can really enjoy it, as it also requires a lot of creativity. However, I know this is not the job that I want to be doing the rest of my life. Maybe it is because I only teach children, which has never been what I loved the most. What I like about what I study is that I learn a lot about how the English language works (I still have a lot to learn, as you can see from my writing skills haha), but that’s not relevant to teach children because the level it requires is much lower.
As I am not sure about it anymore, I have even attended a talk about other jobs that I could apply for once I finish my degree. It completely changed my mind, and I will try to follow their advice. I learnt that I am not the only one in this situation and that the best way to know what I want to do in the future is to work in different companies. It also made me think that working in marketing could be great for me, as I have always been interested in it, although I never saw it as a real possibility because I just wanted to be a teacher.
I will try not to be so stressed about all of this because it is not healthy and because I know I will finally do something that I like. I am going to try to find a different job because I want to experience a new thing, and I would also love to study a course I recently found about digital marketing. Also, I am going to work a lot for this blog and I will try to make greater content (it is my main goal for this summer, once I finish all my exams) because I really enjoy blogging. Who knows, I may even become a full-time blogger in the future, why not?
I hope this post wasn’t too long and that you didn’t get bored reading it. I used it to get it all off my chest basically, so I would understand it if you didn’t like it. However, I also think it may be helpful for some other people that may be experiencing the same thing, as seen that you are not alone helps. I would love you to give me some advice to be honest, or at least tell me if you have ever had the same thoughts for the same reason. It would definitely be very useful. Thank you for reading this rambley post, and I hope you enjoyed the outfit in the photos too.
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