I don’t even know how to start this post, as it is quite difficult for me to organise what I feel right now in order to explain it. In fact, I am kind of using the post to organise them, and also to be able to remember more about this moment of my life in the future. It has been a weird week for me because I couldn’t stop thinking about my birthday, which was yesterday for you reading this post. I still can’t believe I am 20 right now… where has time gone?!
There is something about growing up that makes me feel quite anxious, and I don’t know why. I am not scared about it, but time goes by so fast that it blows my mind. I am very young and I may be too dramatic about this all, however, I can’t get over the fact that I still feel like a child, a grown-up child. I am probably confused because I feel like this way but I live the life of an adult anyway, as I have my job, I’m studying at university and, in general, I have responsibilities.
Because I’ve been thinking about this during this week, I have even read last years post (here) again, which has made me realise that I love my life. It is not perfect, but I love it because thanks to my experiences I am the person that I am today. It has also helped me remember that my family and friends are two of the most important things in life. For this reason, I didn’t want to celebrate my birthday going to a club or something of this sort. I wanted a chilled birthday with my loved ones in order to have some time together, chat and just have a nice day.
I am writing this at night on the day of my birthday and I can say that I have managed to do what I wanted and actually needed. Even though I had to work in the morning, I came back home and we all had a delicious lunch that my mum had prepared. Then we’ve gone to Barcelona and we’ve wandered around its streets until we got into a café to have some coffee (well, I had tea because I’m not a fan of coffee haha). Then we’ve come back and we’re having a chilled evening at home. It may sound boring to you, but for me it has been a great day. Tomorrow (today for you) is going to be as good, as I’ll have the same kind of day with my friends. We’re going to the cinema and we’ll have lunch at a restaurant, and whatever happens next. It won’t be anything extraordinary, but again, it’ll be perfect for me.
You probably found this post a bit boring or too cheesy, although I hope you enjoyed the post. It was not meant to be a super interesting post though. I just wanted to pour my heart out. Are you this dramatic when it comes to birthdays? I hope I am not the only one. I’d love to know how you want to celebrate your next birthday. I am very interested in that, as it kind of shows how you’re feeling at the moment. Let me know all of that in the comments. Oh, and thank you for reading (I never thank you for this… I should do it more often).